Since this is going to be my last piece until the end of the grueling SPM Trial [the terror begins tomorrow...], I feel obliged to make it quick and straight to the point.

I want to remind myself to please, halt the goofing and slacking around and focus on the prospect of facing this exam with a clear mind and de-cluttered heart.

I would also use this opportunity to remind myself to pause the trouble-making and increase the amount of study I have done.

I would also tell myself that I am proud of myself, regardless my current lack of attention in studying PQS and PSI. Oh, and I also forgive myself for being slightly off guard lately and hope that the carelessness won’t make themselves present in the near future.

That’s about all. And I hope you guys can read between the line.

Prayers and Solat Hajat are greatly appreciated. Have a great week, minna-san!~

p/s: Had a creepy nightmare yesterday. Two prominent people were in it and it sends shivers down my spine.

I wonder how I should interpret the dream. Hmm.

Wondering who those two are? Sakinah-sensei and Arashi-san. Perhaps I should keep in touch with them.

On second thought, I’m shy T~T

Apa nak buat kalau kita marah?

1. Berhenti.
2. Berfikir.
3. Bangun dari kerusi anda.
4. Meluru ke pintu kelas.
5. Terhempas pintu terlajak kuat.
6. Berlari ke tandas.
7. Pegang dinding sebab lari laju sangat dan terasa hampir terjatuh.
8. Ambil wudhu’.
9. Bersandar di dinding.
10. Genggam penumbuk [yang sedang menggeletar].
11. Ketap bibir bawah.
12. Sabar.
13. Ingat Allah.
14. Ulang: Ana soimun.
15. Sabar.
16. Terasa kaki gatal nak sepak benda.
17. Rapatkan kaki.
18. Terasa mata macam masuk habuk.
19. Tutup mata erat-erat.
20. Rasa marah sangat sampai nak menangis.
21. Bangun dari bersandar.
22. Buka mata dan segera basuh dengan air paip.
23. Ingat Allah.
24. Ulang: Ana soimun.
25. Keluar dari tandas.
26. Berjalan dengan penuh bergaya ke kelas.
27. Masuk kelas tanpa ketuk pintu dan bagi salam dalam hati.
28. Perasan rakan-rakan sekelas menjeling anda.
29. Bersyukur sebab guru tidak masuk ke kelas waktu itu.
30. Duduk balik di tempat duduk anda.
31. Buat selamba seolah-olah tiada apa yang berlaku.

Kenapa nak marah?

Wouldn’t you want to know…

Atiqah is a quite [read: very] eccentric girl. She will explore herself everyday through muhasabah-ing and going through her likes and dislikes.

She supposed it is a normal human activity; to constantly find out new things about herself. Like, she just noticed she had a thing for black glutinous rice porridge, a very sweet dessert that should not be consumed more than half a bowl per serving.

She is also a very random person. She can talk [read: debate] with you about Maple Story at first, and suddenly the conversation with change course towards the current political issues here in Malaysia.

If you are quite slow to read between the lines, Maple Story and politics have nothing in common. The only similarity they have is that both are to be discussed only by talented and open-minded adults. [Laugh out loud now guys, you have my consent.]

Actually, I’m just plain bored. Revised Physics today [Electromagnetism and Electronics] but I had to stop third-quarter way into it; I had an excruciatingly painful stomach begging for some break from the studying. [To be frank, that was three hours ago :P]

Nothing exciting happened lately, apart from the joy of walking [read: dashing] to the mosque under the star-studded sky for Solat Isya’ and Terawih.

And the joy of helping mom set up the table, or the joy of bossing the siblings around while setting up the table, or the joy of Qiamullail, or the joy of just being alive in this Ramadhan.

Other than that, none. I’m way behind my homework and I trust that you believe me when I say my homework are piling taller and taller as we discuss their height. They might want to challenge the height of Everest. *shrug*

I’ve been called into the Bilik Guru twice this week. Perhaps I’m getting naughtier?

I also had a row with a classmate. A one-sided actually. Haven’t made a move to strike up a conversation with her yet this week. I think the girls noticed I’m not on good term with her. Hell, I don’t care for petty things.

Oh, and Mrs. Chan the Add Math teacher said, she talked to Ustazah Tempawan and ustazah said that the school targeted me to get straight 12A1 for this SPM.

Mrs. Chan said it out loud to the class. I don’t know what I should be thinking about it, but I sure am feeling a little bit… what’s the word? Oh, yes. I felt troublesome.

Not that I mind, because all I wanted for SPM is to beat my bro and make my parents proud. Haha. Not to live up to the school’s target. Right?

I’m a simple girl, living in a simple world with simple family to simply tend to.

Okay, I admit. I do want to live up to the school’s target. Note that I used ‘want’. I usually get what I want due to extreme hard work and never-ending do’a and Solat Hajat to Him.

So I plan on getting what I want for this Trial SPM [3 days to go] and SPM [55 days to go].

Drop the SPM subject, I’m getting more bored now. Perhaps a kip is what I need. Yeah.

Till then, have a great day!